A must see...

God Kill Bill is an awesome movie...I suggest you go see it...right now.

I really need to read what I write before I post...my god my spelling and grammar are awful, and how do I miss so many typos? They are so blindingly obvious...

I may need a Doctor...

I am such a loser...oh my god. I am crushing on this guy so much at work, and I feel so dumb about it. But he's so cute, and funny....*Sigh* I don't even know what attracted me to him, I just really like him, maybe its lust...yeah that's it, its lust. I'll just keep telling myself that until I completely believe it's true. In other work related news, I finally got til trained. Yay, now I can cover sporting goods. Anyway, three days off, so I can finally have some sort of a life...hopefully.

Love is like a barren place, and reaching out for human faith is like a journey I just don't have a map for

Might just be the weather, but I'm in a good mood. Actually looking forward to work today, I really don't mind working there, and now that I think about it, I don't think I would be that disappointed to not go to Sweden. I think that not hearing for so long has kind of allowed me to accept the fact that I may not have gotten accepted. I mean a part of me is really disappointed, but the other part is okay with it. I am in a really good mood, I;m almost giddy, I just had strawberries, which always make me super happy. Anyways, three days off! Yay, going to go to the driving range tomorrow, maybe get together with Jenny. I should email her now that I am thinking about this...

Waiting for the right kind of pilot to come...

Well today was not too bad. Its nice to work and not have to worry about doing homework after. I really like working mornings. I have no idea why, cause it means getting up early, but I like to work them. On a side not of absolutely no importance, my day started off to a great day. I love waking up to a good song on the radio, it makes the rest of my day great. This morning it was Savage Garden, to the moon and back, I forgot how much I liked them, and miss their music, now that they are *sob* broken up. I saw them in concert, they were really awesome. I loved it, and still do. I pained my nails today, it's nice to do something for yourself every once and a while, and lord knows I need it. I deserve, I have been working myself to the bone. Tonight's agenda, more time with myself, I'm going to read some more of my book and maybe watch a little television, although I doubt that there is anything interesting on, it is Saturday night. Anyway, I will stop talking about meaning less, pointless crap that no ones wants to hear about....that really doesn't leave me much else to talk about, does it?

Feet on the coffee table

Well I'm back from my exam and sick filled week. It was quite a handful. Anyway, keeping this short cause I'm still sick, and I have to work in the morning. Sigh, I work so much. I have a new gmail account thing...I will out up the address in my contacts when I get a spare moment. Anyway off to sleep...night all in internet land.

Must keep eyes open

Ouch I hurt...I hate being Ill. Not to mention I need to study for anthropology and history, but because I feel ill I've been putting it off. Nose to the grindstone tomorrow, that's for sure.

Stupid immune system

Well I'm sick, and I have two exams this week. Life sucks. Not to mention I haven't heard from either Uvic or Uppsala in regards to my application...now I'm really worried that I didn't get accepted. It's kind of funny, I check my email all the time in anticipation for an acceptance email, but as soon as I click the log in button, I know that it won't be there...*sigh* I really hate waiting...Well I think that I am off to sleep now, I have to go see the doctor tomorrow and pray that he can make me feel better in time for my exams on Thursday and Friday...everybody cross your fingers for me.

You can call me Al...

I was so impressed. While I wrote my biochem exam in the gym, that seats like close to 1000 people, not one cell phone rang. Not one. Now in this day in age, its hard to not be sitting in a quiet room and hear the sudden explosion of some top 40 pop hit, no doubt with lude lyrics that involve sexual content of some kind. I don't know if it was because it was Saturday morning at 9am, so most people would be hung over and not willing to call friends this early, or if it was just that the room was filed with responsible students who have learned how to turn their cell phones off. Yeah, I'm sure it's the second option...

I always forget how much I like to write in this thing. It brings some kind of reassurance. It's funny, because I normally don't like to write in journals or anything. But I find it somewhat easy to just sit down and type whatever comes into my mind. Although, when I think that there are a few other people out there who read it, it scares the crap out of me and I tend to not really say what's on my mind. So I just have to not think like that...

Give her the wings to fly through harmony and she won't bother you no more...

I watched David Letterman the other night, wow, it was great. Viggo Mortensen AND Sting. My two favorite guys on one stage... That made my night.

Speaking of Sting, he's touring now, and I really want to go see him, except one problem. The only time he comes anywhere near me is in October. That would not be cool, because I will hopefully be in Sweden at that time...maybe I can get tickets to see him somewhere in Europe. That would be really really cool...

Had my Philosophy exam tonight. It went okay. Not holding my breath for an A or anything. I just really want to pull of a B-. I really need to get my total GPA up, especially if I don't get into Uppsala, so that I can try to get in next year. In case you haven't noticed, I haven't heard anything from them yet, and I really really want to know what the hell is going on with my life...hard to make any type of plan when I don't know what's going to happen.

As sad as this sounds, it really makes me upset that my friends don't invite me out anymore. I don't even know why they don't. I mean, yes the last few parties I have been invited to I couldn't go to because I was working. I really wanted to, but I can't not go to work, that and I really need the money. It's going to cost a lot for me to go to school abroad next year, and I need all the help I can get. The only reason I know I wasn't invited out with my friends is that they have a camping trip and a picnic planed, that I have not been invited to, but know cause I caught the last bit of their conversations. It also upsets me when they don't think I care. I hate it when they make me feel bad that I can't come. My parent's aren't rich and can't pay for all of my education, and I have no plans to use loans the entire way through. I know that they are only joking when they make remarks about me not coming, but it still makes me feel like shit. In a way, I think my friends have written me off. That makes me really sad. I hung around with these people for my entire high school years, to have them write me off, rarely talk to me, or invite me out...It's hard to say how I feel, but in a way, I think I'm kinda disappointed. I mean, I guess I expected these friendships to last after high school, but they aren't.

Sorry, I didn't mean to turn this into a rant... One of the few times I write and I bitch and moan. Opps...sorry. Well its off to study for my biochem exam tomorrow morning. I will write more tomorrow or on Sunday night. I promise...*crosses fingers*

Play by boring play

Well I have a long list of things to write about, but let me just give you a recap of my boring, work filled weekend.
Friday
What happened Friday, oh right it was good Friday, and I got to work the day shift. IT WAS INSANE. It was so busy, and I'm not joking. I worked non stop that entire day. But hey it's money, I can't complain about that. I got home at about 4:00pm, slept till around midnight, watched TV for a while, then went back to bed and slept until noon the next day. God I love this.
Saturday
Slept some more, then helped out in the yard. Dragged myself to work at 4:30 only to find that low and behold, Eric, the guy who works in sports called in sick, so I was in charge of sports and
hardware. This would normally be okay, except I haven't been taught how to use a until (even though I know how to use one). So everytime I had to ring something up, like a fishing license, I would have to call the girl from pets to come and do it. She didn't seem to happy after I called her for something like the 50th time. Anyway, that was Saturday nights shift.
Sunday
Well I had the day off! Yay, so we did the Easter basket thing, God I love my mom. Then we had guests over for Turkey dinner. Get ready for it, dun dun dun....I ate meat. Yeah, and I liked it. So there. But I did last over 2 months, which is not to shabby. I don't plan on going back to eating lots of meat, just the odd piece here and there when I feel like it. But the not eating meat thing was good while it lasted.
Monday and Tuesday
These day's I figure I can blend into one, considering I did nothing. I slept and laid in bed reading my novel, or watching TV. Now that I've mentioned my novel, I shall talk a little about it. I am reading the Mists of Avalon. Its a really neat perspective on the whole Arthurian time frame and rule. I look forward to reading the other books, and have a hard time putting this one down, even when I know I should be studying for my exams.
Anyway, I am now off to study for Philosophy with Justin, so I can at least pass this course. Philosophy is fun and all, but kind of boring when you have to study it in a class room setting.

Grain of salt

Wow, it's been a while since I last wrote, but believe me, I've been busy. It seems like all I do is work nonstop, and when I'm not doing that, I'm sleeping. Who knows when I will have time to study for my finals. I really need to get on that. Anyway, so I got paid today, man I like having money, mind you I blew a lot of it on a new digital camera. God I love my digital camera *drool* It's a Fujifilm A210, and its real nice. I only bought it yesterday because it was on clearance, presumably because it's last season's model. I'm not going to say how much it cost, for fear of making myself sick looking at the number. I usually don't spend large sums of money. Period. I'm glad I finally have one, now maybe I can become a better photographer. (Here's hoping). Next paycheck...in like 4 weeks I really hope to buy a GPS unit. They hopefully I can pick up a new hobby. Yay Geocacshing. I need a new hobby, considering I don't really have one, although I think I am going to take up sewing again. I like to create things, and I found a cool pattern for a handbag, with a really neat fabric, so I may buy that tomorrow and make it sometime on the weekend when I'm not busy. (No idea when that's going to be). In other work related news, I got asked out by a co-worker, Normally I would have no problem with this, but this guy kinda creeps me out, considering he is like in his 30's and looks like the type of guy who still lives with his mother. Now I know that it's going to be sooo awkward at work because I didn't want to go out with him. And because I know that it will be awkward, I'm going to hate going to work, and I'm going to in turn try to avoid him, which will make me look bad. Because I have the shittest luck ever, I'm going to end up working tones of shifts with him, and quite frankly I can see him possibly being the stalking type. I mean come on, the man likes to hang around work even when he's not working. (God I hope that has nothing to do with me). Man, I have no idea what to do, besides pray to God that he, or any of my other coworkers find this. On a happier note I got to cover fabrics yesterday for an hour, that was really fun, I'd cover fabrics anytime they needed me too. Oh well, that has been my life for the past little while. I really need to go clean my room now, man its really messy, mind you all I have been doing in it is sleeping and the odd typing on the computer. So, off to clean the room, have grilled cheese sandwiches for dinner, and then a blissful night in front of the warm glow of the television.

Fun weekend for me...

Wow, it's been a while since I last wrote. I've been really busy with school and work. My feet hurt. A lot. Foot bath for me, and maybe ice cream. Not much to report. Not a lot has been happening. Star Trek: DS9 marathon for me all day tomorrow. Maybe I can figure out what the hell is going on in that series... That and I have to clean my room, and read my book, and NOT WORK! Yay, day off...So I think my days off will be Monday and Thursday's, but we shall see. Emily first agreed to take my shift, and then yesterday told me she didn't want to take my shift, and gave me some bullshit story about her having plans with her mother, so I didn't get to go to the party tomorrow, but now that I think about it, making that money wasn't all to bad. I had the customers from hell today. I won't go to into detail, mostly cause I'm lazy and want to go to bed....yes at 6:30. But anyway, these customers came in and kept comparing all our samples, and the stain they had made to some stuff at Home Depot. After an hour and a half, I wanted to slap them and tell them to go to FUCKING HOME DEPOT. But I didn't, cause I like my job...most of the time. And then they bought like 10 cans, and are determined to get them stained at the other Wal Mart closer to their home. I explained that they may not tint them for them, but whatever, the fucked up woman did not want to listen. Not my problem, although I do need to check with Rob on the whole tinting issue, and retinting and stuff. Now that I am bitching about work, I got yelled at by Patty from foods today. What had happened was that Alex in sports had gone on his Lunch, and I was really backed up and having problems. So I called Matt from the food department, who used to do hardware. It wasn't like I called him to socialize, I really needed help. So Matt comes over and helps me, and Patty calls me and tells me that I shouldn't be calling Matt, I should call a Duty Manager, etc. I'll tell you, I wanted to quit right then and there, I did not take this job to be yelled at by some middle age woman who can't doing anything better with her life than work at Wal Mart. I was also almost in tears at this point, I blame the female hormone's. But I must admit, that Patty's saving grace was her apology to me a few moments later. Matt must have told her I was upset at her yelling at me.
On a cooler note, I love it that my Manager likes some of the things I do. One of these display things got ripped off on Saturday night, so I tried to fix it by screwing it back in a using glue and stuff, but it wasn't going to work, so I explained it to him, and he was impressed that I had even tried and tried different things too. I also pulled out the paint machine and cleaned behind it. That was a big job. I was still working on it today. Anyway, off to bed for me. More tomorrow, in between episodes of DS9!

Yay for money!

So there is no way hope in hell that I am going to this party on Saturday. *Sigh* And I feel bad about missing it, especially because Jordan made me feel shitty about not coming, and not doing anything with them. I really wanted to, but couldn't because I have to work, and there's no one to replace me.

On a lighter note, I'm going to be freaking rich. Now I remember why I liked work. Although I have to put a lot of it away for school, I am going to put 1/3 or so in a fund so I can buy my digital camera, and hopefully even a GPS unit. So that is one plus to working so god damn much. Now that I think about it....make 100 bucks, or go to a party and get drunk, while making an ass out of myself. The 100 bucks is looking better by the moment!

Yay, school is almost over, and I finally have two decent books to read in HTML and Web site creation, so when I'm not working, I plan on doing that. I also plan to read the Mists of Avalon, I finally caved in a bought it, so now all I have to do is read it!

Haha, funny

Popular to contrary belief, my last post was not an April fools post. It seriously happened...believe me, I would not joke about standing out in the cold for more than 2hrs. (Mind you we were getting paid, so it wasn't all that bad) I'm not really a big April fool's person. Maybe it's laziness, I have no motivation to prank someone, and either a) give them a heart attack, or b) get my self beaten senseless by someone who didn't find it as funny as I did. I have a really strange sense of humor that way, I find things funny that most people wouldn't...meh. Anyway, I'm off to harass my teacher about my anthropology assignment and maybe get some breakfast...mmm hashbrowns.

Great Day At Work

Well, what a day I had to day. Mixed some paint, dealt with some bitchy customers, zoned, and stood outside for 2 1/2 hours because of a bomb threat.

Yeah you heard me. A FUCKING BOMB THREAT. Who in god's name phone's in a bomb threat to Wal-Mart? Fucker. So yeah. I'm helping this customer find, of all things, a toilet seat, when our manager comes on and tells us that our store is closing and could everyone please leave the store. Of course I have no idea what's going on, so I can't help the people who are asking me why we are closing so early. So I make my way to the front where we are all told to leave the building and make our way to the opposite side of the parking lot. During this time I find out that there has been a code Blue called, which is a bomb. So we all wait outside for at least 2hrs waiting to get the all clear from the R.C.M.P so we can go back inside and not freeze out assess off. Anyway, during this time, many of us all piled into peoples cars. These were the smart people who had their keys with them, not the stupid shlubs like me, who left everything inside our lockers. Because we ended up waiting for so long, Lynn went and bought us all donuts from Tim Hortens, and someone (I can't remember her name) went and got coffee and cream for us from her other work place. Anyway, when it was all said and done, it was a great way to blow 2hrs and get to know my other co-workers.

But Now I am tired. I will finish telling you about all the other bits tomorrow. Night all.