Fear, and no loathing, I'm to young to go to Las Vegas...

I don't know why, but I'm in a really good mood right now, even though I'm getting absolutely nowhere in regards to my paper. I really need to stop reading all these different blogs...But they are so interesting...I really like Wil Weaton's blog, its really personal, and in depth, everything that I am afraid to be. I've always been really afraid to cry or show my feelings, I mean I do it, and I am really prone to crying during a movie, but when it comes to reality, I have a hard time showing emotions. The funny thing was that I had the greatest career counselor ever who got me through so many of the difficult times in my life, that I am sure without her, I would have at least tried to kill my self to deal. Which I know is stupid, I was a peer counselor for almost 5 years, but that's just the way I can see myself dealing... Now there's no need to get worried, I have absolutely no plans to kill myself anytime soon, life is way to short to end it like that, man, I plan to live until I'm 100. I can so see myself going to talk to her when I'm like 30... Just because she's that good, and in a lame way, I also consider her a friend. But now that that tangent's over, back to my good mood...So my Utopia account (Utopia for all the 'cool' people out there is an online game, that's kind of like a role playing game) got moved to Battlefields, which is for the really good people, so that's scary and cool at the same time. Not to mention I'm still with the BEST kingdom ever! The guys that are there have been nothing but the best to me. Teaching me all the little things I need to know, and telling me over and over again how to do something. If anyone form Da Barons finds there way here, YOU GUYS ROCK! I love each guy I talk with, and believe it or not, they all make me feel special and welcome, not to mention that I am the only female in our kingdom. I think I will be a tad jealous when another female comes along, but that's a different post altogether, and I will have to wait and see what happens. Come to think about it, it may be nice to have some more estrogen to counter act at the maleness...